Jenn Pautsch
Bio
I am a mom to three wonderful boys who are my world! I enjoy spending time outdoors, watching my boys play baseball, reading, writing, and relaxing. Most recently, I have been not driving across town much during the shelter-in-place order.
Stories (11/0)
Music in my Heart.
When I sit alone with my thoughts, song lyrics often run through my mind. Music is part of my soul and has been a longtime companion while I cope with life. My friends and I used to joke that we needed a soundtrack for our lives, and I really think I could honestly tell the entire story of my life with songs. Maybe not a story that made sense to other people, but I would know exactly who, what, where, when, and why based on where I was at in the playlist. So, maybe not a joke after all.
By Jenn Pautschabout a year ago in Families
Being "That" Mom: Revisited
Three years ago, I wrote a short blog about being that baseball mom. I talked of the beginnings of it all, and how important those teams become. I vaguely remember the writing of it, and reading it again brought me back to that time in our lives. So sweet, and a great thing to remember.
By Jenn Pautsch2 years ago in Families
Quarantined and Working from Home, with Kids
I am not sure what day of lock down this is. I can't remember if I social distanced before the shelter in place started. The reality of what is happening right now is so surreal that I can't do much besides function day to day in a weird twilight zone world. Grabbing groceries makes me feel like I am in Outbreak, or some movie about Zombies. What I do know is that it feels like eternity that my kids and I have been in close quarters. They certainly do not understand social distancing. From other people, absolutely. But from me? Nope.
By Jenn Pautsch4 years ago in Families
Silver Lining
Sometimes you just get stuck. In life, in everything. Currently, I am stuck with my writing. I am in the process of writing this book, chapter by chapter. So much of what I need to write is painful, and I know I need to write it. But I can’t write it out of order. At least, I am struggling with not writing it out of order. There are so many good things, great memories that I intend to share. It just seems like I can’t write those chapters until I get this pain out. I have literally been trying for weeks to come up with the topic of my next chapter, and I haven’t found one that satisfies me.
By Jenn Pautsch4 years ago in Motivation
Simply My Life 2
I am stalling. I have known since I finished the first chapter what comes next in this story. I cannot tell any more of my life without this chapter. So much of who I am, who I became, was influenced by the events in this part of my life. And I do not want to write it. It will open up a part of my heart that, even 30 years later, I can't handle emotionally. It involves the single most devastating loss I have ever experienced. But as I said, I can't tell any more of my story without it. I have tried to come up with a way to tell other things first, and I probably could fill up some pages with fluffy good memories. I could entertain you with my childhood. But those aren't the things that have shaped my story.
By Jenn Pautsch5 years ago in Families
No Girls Allowed
All of my life I wanted to be a mother. When I was younger I wanted to have kids young. My mom had me when she was 20, about to turn 21. I loved having a young mom. My mind boggled at my friends who had older parents. I just thought having kids while you were younger would mean you would have more energy and be more interactive in their lives.
By Jenn Pautsch5 years ago in Families
Battles
Today, I am angry. I am preparing myself for a battle. One that I will win. I have every confidence about that. But what I am angry about is that I shouldn't even have to fight for this. It is an injustice, and the other side is wrong for their behavior. What is happening is illegal, and will be resolved. It is being done to intimidate me and to get me to give up. I cannot specify any details regarding what is happening, because I am not risking it getting into the wrong hands and being used against me. I will only give these vague details, and say that they picked the wrong person to bully.
By Jenn Pautsch5 years ago in Psyche
Simply My Life
Chapter One The first memory I have from my childhood is riding my tricycle in the basement with gardener snakes slithering around. I had probably just turned four. We had an unfinished concrete basement, with a couple steps down to a dirt floor room where our washer and dryer were. I thought this had been a dream until one day my mother mentioned it. Now, I don’t know about you, but I think this is a logical start for my fear of snakes. This house also is the setting for another “dream” I had of a large tire filled with sand that was my sandbox. There was a snake in that too. I have no idea if this was a dream, or if this was also real.
By Jenn Pautsch5 years ago in Families
Do You Know What Your Big Dream Is?
I have always wanted to write. There would be days that I would sit in class and write notes, poems, song lyrics, and even rough outlines for stories. As long as I was able to get the thoughts out onto paper, my mind would stay focused. Maybe you can’t imagine what it feels like to have a continuous stream of thoughts trying to push their way front and center. Or perhaps you can. But all I knew was that if I could be creative and get them out somehow, I wouldn’t be so incredibly restless. So agitated. What I didn’t realize then was that I would have a lifelong battle with anxiety, and writing was an outlet for me to keep it at bay. But that is a topic for another day. Probably numerous days. Today though, this is the glorious first time I am writing with every intention of putting it out for the world to see. I have no idea what road this will take me down, but I am ready to be heard as I make the journey.
By Jenn Pautsch5 years ago in Motivation
I'm "That" Baseball Mom
I always knew that someday when I had kids I would be "that" mom. I would be overenthusiastic, loud, and unapologetic for my actions. There was never any doubt in my mind. As a teenager, I was an athlete and also a sport's girlfriend. And I was always there, always loud, and always opinionated. It didn't hurt that I loved all sports and had a working knowledge of what was happening. Of course, I had imagined having girls and envisioned a life full of cheerleading, softball, and volleyball. Or, if I had boys, it would be football. And then I had kids, and my oldest, at an extremely young age, showed quite an aptitude for baseball skills. So, baseball it was.
By Jenn Pautsch5 years ago in Unbalanced
